the battle begins...

The battle has begun with the first paper the friday that just passed... this was supposed to be the paper i am confident in but it ended up quite bad... lots of concept confusing me... dun even know if i could pass... hopefully i can pass it and get over and done with it! Been mugging daily at the grauate lounge and going hyper with crazy acts and stupid moves. Perhaps i am sad... the graduate lounge... kept having memories flashing in my mind.... nice and beautiful memories i had but wished to forget... being hyper keep all those sadness away from me... kept me from thinking too much whenever my mind drifts off... sorry to those who had to endure all these... haha. sorry for bring weak... if only our brain works like the computer where we can stored memories and info and we can delete whenever shit that we dun want....

Can guys cry? i am a emotional person... crying is just another emotions of humans... it certainly make one feel better to cry out... at least it works for me... sometimes i would just take a step back and look at myself... start thinking of all the stuffs... my dad.. my life... and i start tearing... it make me feel better... but it make me feel so weak... i hate feeling weak... perhaps i am weak... i want to be strong... but how? perhaps someday i will be... at least i will be trying...

been a tiring week... it time for sleep and prepare for another day of mugging... its a sad life in this fast pace world where even the walking paces of people is so fast.... nights people...