so tired of everything....

another paper today and yes, its another bad paper. this sem hasn't been really good. been trying to study so hard but yet doing badly for my papers. I thought i was fine with it but i just realise i am not. called cindy and kaopei a bit and suddenly a gush of sadness just got into me. perhaps its a close friend that i am talking to and getting to complain things out. Kaopei-ing to people and close friends are so different. Close friends' voices are ever so comforting. The only two friends i would confide in cos of their ever comforting voices are eugene and cindy. Its just so comforting to hear their voices when i am down. With eugene not in ntu and cindy going home, i suddenly feel so lonely and with so many setbacks in my paper, i just broke down totally. I dunno whats the reason behing it also, perhaps i was stressed? perhaps there was too many setbacks?

Suddenly i miss their comforting voices yet i dun wanna call and affect them. Feel like calling my mum and yet i dun wanna to add on to her worries. As much as i want independence, sometimes i just wanna be a young kid hiding in my mum's ever comforting shelter. Perhaps it just make me feel the love and care that i have from my mum. I suddenly miss my mum a lot. At this very moment i just feel like hiding in her warm, comforting shelter...... with her protecting me from everything......