what should i do.....
sorry for the previous post... kind of upset but feel better... been too tired lately and not really doing well emotionally... anyway cheerleading is still going on and ya... that means burning of weekends and public holidays for the performance on 18th jan which is next wed... and the cold weather is making my knee going weak... there is always sharp pain at my knee when the weather turns cold and its really affecting me... just pray that it wun crumble soon... haha...
anyway these few days have been thinking thru... i dunno if i should stay in hall or should i change a hall or should i move hall... i love hall life... i like to stay in hall but there is something lacking from it... something that i am looking for in hall life... just cannot seems to find it... which is the bond between people just like the choir frens i had in tk choir.... i cannot find it and i dunno why... perhaps its me... its kind of disappointing cos i am scare of being alone... i hate to eat meal alone... hate to go lecture alone... i just hate being alone... i have to carry my ipod around so that the songs can accompany me and i must listen to songs when i sleep so that i dun feel that i am alone... wierd u might say but thats me... yup... i dunnno if changing halls will change things but moving back home might make things better... i dunnno also... i am confused... what should i do?
perhaps i should learn to be alone and learn to accept things... accept that humans are selfish by nature... accept that humans make use of each other... i try not to accept these thinkings but it seems to be this way... at least most of the people are these way except for a few that really help me a lot in hall...
i am wierd plus living in a world of complicated human relations... maybe i think too much sometimes... maybe its just me... maybe i should go rest... nights peeps...
anyway these few days have been thinking thru... i dunno if i should stay in hall or should i change a hall or should i move hall... i love hall life... i like to stay in hall but there is something lacking from it... something that i am looking for in hall life... just cannot seems to find it... which is the bond between people just like the choir frens i had in tk choir.... i cannot find it and i dunno why... perhaps its me... its kind of disappointing cos i am scare of being alone... i hate to eat meal alone... hate to go lecture alone... i just hate being alone... i have to carry my ipod around so that the songs can accompany me and i must listen to songs when i sleep so that i dun feel that i am alone... wierd u might say but thats me... yup... i dunnno if changing halls will change things but moving back home might make things better... i dunnno also... i am confused... what should i do?
perhaps i should learn to be alone and learn to accept things... accept that humans are selfish by nature... accept that humans make use of each other... i try not to accept these thinkings but it seems to be this way... at least most of the people are these way except for a few that really help me a lot in hall...
i am wierd plus living in a world of complicated human relations... maybe i think too much sometimes... maybe its just me... maybe i should go rest... nights peeps...
posted by Jeffrey Goh at
1/11/2006 02:04:00 AM
5 Comments:
Relax and just keep in mind that things works around in a very different way each time. Learn to appreciate ba, I suppose. Appreciate that's how people are. It makes what individuals unique. Not all people can sync with each other, but look at it in another way, u might find it interesting...
hmm..i feel tt u shud maintain the optimism u had, its oways gd to be positive n happy even when tings aint gg well. i dun realli noe wat actually happened or hw u feel at this moment, but i hope you dun gif up cos i tink ya doing fine..uve put in a lot of effort to make more frns n gif ur best for this hall..so continue to do it for yr remaining 2 yrs. mebbe im not fit to say this at all,when i myself am feeling very disappointed wif everyting already.kinda ironic man..well...aniway this may well be my last sem in hall. ANd ya,if u cant find any1 to eat wif u or accompany u..u can try calling 810***** as a last resort. Gd lukz on the 18th~
i know exactly how you feel. i went through what you're going through, the whole fear of loneliness hence acclimatising with everything.
there's so much i can say to ya, but i dun think this is the place. if ya need to talk, i'm around. if you're getting over it, i'm behind you. dun let this get the better of ya. =)
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never feel that others don't care about you. although people might not take the initiative to talk to you. u cld take the initiative instead. your friends are always there for you. just give them a buzz or something man. we came to this world alone after all and we gotta learn to live with people around us. haha why are we always thinking about the same things ah. as in our blog contents. lol. i need as much guidance as you do man. as in the hall thing about moving on to other halls and the interpersonal r/s in hall. haha u bitch.
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